before they are gone - nothing lasts forever..

My deepest condolences to a colleague's mother who passed on yesterday morning due to a relapse of cervical cancer - which in turns becomes a liver cancer. May her soul rests in tranquility.

We visited the wake at the multi purpose hall near her residential area at Pasir Ris. The cortège will leave on Thursday; I think. BG looked very sad but she had no regrets.

I had the same feeling when Dad passed on - maybe because I did tried to spent most of my time with his during his last moments in life and I had tried to provide him with the best things in life as far as I can afford it.

Thus, when you have fulfill your filial piety towards your parents and have great faith in Allah, (or your own God) if God's willing - you would not be filled with guilt conscience that you are not able to provide for your parents while you can. YES, of course you will be saddened by their absence, this is part and parcel of life. Nothing you do can change anything once they are gone. Therefore, learn to appreciate your parents - whoever they are. You didn't choose them and they are not given a chance to choose you; but they still bring you up proper, without having any thoughts of whether you will provide for them when they are feeble. There was a saying; 'a mother can provide for ten of her children, but she will have no guarantee anyone of her children can provide for this 1 mother'


Despite saying all this, I am not trying to be good. I have my flaws too - human remember (!!) but I try to make them up. But I have been through this, losing a parent is not easy. I am lucky I lost my father at a later age - even though he did not get a chance to see me on the dais. Losing my father, thought me a lot from coping with internal and external family issues.


I have to deal with the household necessity with the kind assistance of my dear Mother. I loved her and she is the reason I am here. She is the reason I mellow down; the sacrifices you make just to see the person you love happy; because I know she has gone through enough. But as a young adult, my patience has been tested enough. I pray day and night, Allah give me the strength to move on. For every challenges/difficulties I faced, I will always tell myself that this is something He knows I can pull through.

Today office is really empty. Sotella Papa is out of office till December, while my AS and Sup II is on leave. Dunia ini hamba yang punya!! I am really sleeeeepppppppppppppyyyyyyyyyy today at work, like a little hangover.


...And I think I need my bed now...Its calling my name...


Till some other time,

Love...Assalamualaikum!