Happy New Year everybody. May you be blessed and prosperous always this year.
2009 has been good besides the normal financial hiccups along the way - that only made me wiser and the 0.25. The lowest in the history of CS. Dang. But never mind, I'm glad I can make do with what I have. Solely because I am a SURVIVOR!
The second year I am without a father. Al-fatehah.
Song of the year; is definitely Nobody by Wondergirls and hits from Lady Gaga.
Korean hits really gets me on the move.
Reconnected with my Delifrance kakis. Feels at home whenever I am with them.
2009 ; I have met a few great companies and mostly its like a time to rapatkan siraturrahim . All thanks to technology and Facebook! I heart!
A few of my girl cousins got engaged this year. Next year (the following), they will all be married off. Sob sob.
Love life ? Its always been the same since end 2006. Yes, my last serious relationship was with Hakim. Its been that long. I am fine with that fact - despite at times I do feel lonely (which is I guess is normal) but there's more positivity than negativity. I spent more quality time with my mother and family.
Life after Dad's demise is definitely an eye opener. I learned a lot of stuffs. I shouldered the responsibility even though at times - in the beginning, I burst in tears thinking about the stuffs I need to do. I guess it only made me stronger and wiser now.
The major highlight of 2009 is definitely the Triplets Case; which got us (me and Sheena) into the deepest shit.
We surely learnt a lot from that incident. Well, everyday is a new day and we will surely learnt something new.
Till I update you with a lot of other stuffs - SOON! I promise.
Saturday, December 19, 2009
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
ramified.
Enough hiccups already with the system. Having numerous problems just to generate a letter. Not in the mood to blog today. My moods swings have been terrible. Don't take it to heart people - its just a phase. Especially when the people you are working with are terribly sensitive. Sigh.
Called Ain just now and I realized how much I missed her company.
I am watching Singapore Idol now. Going to read my book now..I have been so lethargic.
Need to feedback to Tampines Town Council, seems like we are the only one who lives in this block. But its ok, I am doing all the calling because paying $48.50 for conservacy fees ain't cheap okay!
Bye for now.
Called Ain just now and I realized how much I missed her company.
I am watching Singapore Idol now. Going to read my book now..I have been so lethargic.
Need to feedback to Tampines Town Council, seems like we are the only one who lives in this block. But its ok, I am doing all the calling because paying $48.50 for conservacy fees ain't cheap okay!
Bye for now.
Friday, November 27, 2009
as if...
I took half day yesterday to run some errands with Mum.
Met up with Mariana afterwards and she rented a KIA Picanto. So she drove the car and we managed to get out from the Upper Paya Lebar road. Haha. We spend quite some time to reach her place. But it was rather humid and I can feel the sensation on my skin.
We drove to Silat Road and I told her to practice her parking skills - which she eventually aced. And then, we fetch her sister at Co-Curricular Activities Branch near NUS Faculty of Law. Awww...all my dreams as a young girl did not came through. But its a decision that I made not to study a little harder. Its over.
One thing I hated about this CCAB near NUS, it does not provide a normal parking slots. ALL THE PARKING SLOTS ARE PARALLEL. Can you imagine? It is so disappointing. Eventually I found myself stretches of slots available. Without hesitation, I rushed as fast as I could and secured a slot. Haha.
Dear NUS / CCAB Management,
Do you think everyone knows how to park parallel? And you only left one slot for handicapped individuals? What is this? Should you be more considerate. Knowing that all the cars that parked there are those Mercs, BMW, Lexus, Audi, (!!) What if this small humble car accidentally scratched..or what..It is soooooo scary and not fair ok!!
Met up with Mariana afterwards and she rented a KIA Picanto. So she drove the car and we managed to get out from the Upper Paya Lebar road. Haha. We spend quite some time to reach her place. But it was rather humid and I can feel the sensation on my skin.
We drove to Silat Road and I told her to practice her parking skills - which she eventually aced. And then, we fetch her sister at Co-Curricular Activities Branch near NUS Faculty of Law. Awww...all my dreams as a young girl did not came through. But its a decision that I made not to study a little harder. Its over.
One thing I hated about this CCAB near NUS, it does not provide a normal parking slots. ALL THE PARKING SLOTS ARE PARALLEL. Can you imagine? It is so disappointing. Eventually I found myself stretches of slots available. Without hesitation, I rushed as fast as I could and secured a slot. Haha.
Dear NUS / CCAB Management,
Do you think everyone knows how to park parallel? And you only left one slot for handicapped individuals? What is this? Should you be more considerate. Knowing that all the cars that parked there are those Mercs, BMW, Lexus, Audi, (!!) What if this small humble car accidentally scratched..or what..It is soooooo scary and not fair ok!!
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
the very one word (in Bahasa Melayu) young kids learnt fast.
This blog is unintended for anyone, just sharing what I saw while walking back from work, waiting for my feeder service was a routine. Thankfully, the bus came within 7 minutes of waiting. I managed to get a seat at in the bus, seated beside a lady who was in her late 20's - who sat on my skirt. (!!) Anyhow, I dozed off and was awoken by a young girl who was shrieking beside her sister. Both standing in diagonally in front of me"Wahlau you stepped my feet SIAL"*; I looked at her in awe. She was barely 6 - I think. Bespectacled and wearing shorts, I reckon she must have just finish tuition on the way back home. I am not trying to judge her but if you had just close your eyes and listened to the way she talk to her sister you would have imagined a girl with naughty girl image. But she isn't - very docile, sweet and those i-want-mummy-now kind of girls.
I thought to myself; that must be one word a non-Malay child can speak very well at her tender age. Maybe her siblings must have influenced her, they might be at a growing up age - when everything you say must end with 'sial'* / 'sia' with proper pronunciation and enunciation. I was one of them when I was an adolescent - period.
I begin to reminisce, if I were to say that,(at 6 years old !!) and my parents happen to hear; growing up in a very disciplined environment, my father would have asked me from where I learnt this words and would eventually be reminded firmly not to use such words again. Maybe the girls had relaxed parents. Maybe this is what they call speech of freedom - Yes, agreeable but I also think this should also be closely monitored. From the way they communicate, showcases a lot on who, what, how they are socializing around with - it is Being a parent is not an simple responsibility. I am sure everyone of you know that.
Am already watching Singapore Idols. Now the results show is up. My deepest condolences to Muhammad Nur Rashidy Rahmat who was murdered. Lets all pray that his murderer gets arrested fast.
PS - Mothers, do not let your child be with any of your acquaintances; no matter how much you trusted them.
* - For non-Malay readers, 'sial' means a big mishap.
Love...
I thought to myself; that must be one word a non-Malay child can speak very well at her tender age. Maybe her siblings must have influenced her, they might be at a growing up age - when everything you say must end with 'sial'* / 'sia' with proper pronunciation and enunciation. I was one of them when I was an adolescent - period.
I begin to reminisce, if I were to say that,(at 6 years old !!) and my parents happen to hear; growing up in a very disciplined environment, my father would have asked me from where I learnt this words and would eventually be reminded firmly not to use such words again. Maybe the girls had relaxed parents. Maybe this is what they call speech of freedom - Yes, agreeable but I also think this should also be closely monitored. From the way they communicate, showcases a lot on who, what, how they are socializing around with - it is Being a parent is not an simple responsibility. I am sure everyone of you know that.
Am already watching Singapore Idols. Now the results show is up. My deepest condolences to Muhammad Nur Rashidy Rahmat who was murdered. Lets all pray that his murderer gets arrested fast.
PS - Mothers, do not let your child be with any of your acquaintances; no matter how much you trusted them.
* - For non-Malay readers, 'sial' means a big mishap.
Love...
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
before they are gone - nothing lasts forever..
My deepest condolences to a colleague's mother who passed on yesterday morning due to a relapse of cervical cancer - which in turns becomes a liver cancer. May her soul rests in tranquility.
We visited the wake at the multi purpose hall near her residential area at Pasir Ris. The cortège will leave on Thursday; I think. BG looked very sad but she had no regrets.
I had the same feeling when Dad passed on - maybe because I did tried to spent most of my time with his during his last moments in life and I had tried to provide him with the best things in life as far as I can afford it.
Thus, when you have fulfill your filial piety towards your parents and have great faith in Allah, (or your own God) if God's willing - you would not be filled with guilt conscience that you are not able to provide for your parents while you can. YES, of course you will be saddened by their absence, this is part and parcel of life. Nothing you do can change anything once they are gone. Therefore, learn to appreciate your parents - whoever they are. You didn't choose them and they are not given a chance to choose you; but they still bring you up proper, without having any thoughts of whether you will provide for them when they are feeble. There was a saying; 'a mother can provide for ten of her children, but she will have no guarantee anyone of her children can provide for this 1 mother'
Despite saying all this, I am not trying to be good. I have my flaws too - human remember (!!) but I try to make them up. But I have been through this, losing a parent is not easy. I am lucky I lost my father at a later age - even though he did not get a chance to see me on the dais. Losing my father, thought me a lot from coping with internal and external family issues.
I have to deal with the household necessity with the kind assistance of my dear Mother. I loved her and she is the reason I am here. She is the reason I mellow down; the sacrifices you make just to see the person you love happy; because I know she has gone through enough. But as a young adult, my patience has been tested enough. I pray day and night, Allah give me the strength to move on. For every challenges/difficulties I faced, I will always tell myself that this is something He knows I can pull through.
Today office is really empty. Sotella Papa is out of office till December, while my AS and Sup II is on leave. Dunia ini hamba yang punya!! I am really sleeeeepppppppppppppyyyyyyyyyy today at work, like a little hangover.
...And I think I need my bed now...Its calling my name...
Till some other time,
Love...Assalamualaikum!
We visited the wake at the multi purpose hall near her residential area at Pasir Ris. The cortège will leave on Thursday; I think. BG looked very sad but she had no regrets.
I had the same feeling when Dad passed on - maybe because I did tried to spent most of my time with his during his last moments in life and I had tried to provide him with the best things in life as far as I can afford it.
Thus, when you have fulfill your filial piety towards your parents and have great faith in Allah, (or your own God) if God's willing - you would not be filled with guilt conscience that you are not able to provide for your parents while you can. YES, of course you will be saddened by their absence, this is part and parcel of life. Nothing you do can change anything once they are gone. Therefore, learn to appreciate your parents - whoever they are. You didn't choose them and they are not given a chance to choose you; but they still bring you up proper, without having any thoughts of whether you will provide for them when they are feeble. There was a saying; 'a mother can provide for ten of her children, but she will have no guarantee anyone of her children can provide for this 1 mother'
Despite saying all this, I am not trying to be good. I have my flaws too - human remember (!!) but I try to make them up. But I have been through this, losing a parent is not easy. I am lucky I lost my father at a later age - even though he did not get a chance to see me on the dais. Losing my father, thought me a lot from coping with internal and external family issues.
I have to deal with the household necessity with the kind assistance of my dear Mother. I loved her and she is the reason I am here. She is the reason I mellow down; the sacrifices you make just to see the person you love happy; because I know she has gone through enough. But as a young adult, my patience has been tested enough. I pray day and night, Allah give me the strength to move on. For every challenges/difficulties I faced, I will always tell myself that this is something He knows I can pull through.
Today office is really empty. Sotella Papa is out of office till December, while my AS and Sup II is on leave. Dunia ini hamba yang punya!! I am really sleeeeepppppppppppppyyyyyyyyyy today at work, like a little hangover.
...And I think I need my bed now...Its calling my name...
Till some other time,
Love...Assalamualaikum!
Sunday, November 22, 2009
I do. (forever and ever - yes?)
I reckon saying 'I do' is not as simple as it may sound.
A few of my girl cousins are already engaged and I am elated. It has been a while since we host a wedding. Being engaged is to announce to relatives (think friends do not really care - they still take it that you're a couple) that ' we are officially together' - Some would want a grand affair while others prefer a simple one. Either or it is still the same. Let me congratulate my dear cousins namely; Nurjanah, Nazreen, Kamariah and last but not least this coming 5th Dec - Fadilah. Must go shop for kebayas already. Can't wait.
I would want to get engaged first. Not that I have any candidates. I think being engaged will kinda bring out your other half true colors - not that I do not trust the person I am going to be with (in near future - nope; I am still available though- haha)Its an eye-opener thing. At least, if you think he is not the one during the engagement phase at least you can still split up and your status is still SINGLE not DIVORCEE. (!!)
Have seen many cases; engaged for donkey-years finally got married - got a child (or more) and just divorced with 3 years? Imagine the amount of money wasted just like that. Some have not even finish settling loans with the financial institutions. When things like this happens, they'll say 'jodoh tak panjang or dah takde jodoh' Did you hear anyone blame themselves for this? NEVER. They never want to think about their vows (if any) or the times they've wasted on each other.
On the other hand, I have also seen couples who are blissfully married in the name of love and trust. I am happy that most of them are people whom I had known personally. All shared their bits and pieces of unhappiness too but managed to over calm them. That is maybe why I wanted an engagement first. A lot of others have also tell me - engagements are waste of time.
I shall leave it to fate. Pasrah.
PS - Am checking out Tiffany & Co...already drooling..looking at the pretty rings..(with PRETTY price tags too...)
Its a Lucida Tiffany Engagement Rings collection. Its just a dream. I also like this one...
Schlumberger Rope
fret not, future candidates..I am reasonable.
**how i wish** InsyaAllah.
A few of my girl cousins are already engaged and I am elated. It has been a while since we host a wedding. Being engaged is to announce to relatives (think friends do not really care - they still take it that you're a couple) that ' we are officially together' - Some would want a grand affair while others prefer a simple one. Either or it is still the same. Let me congratulate my dear cousins namely; Nurjanah, Nazreen, Kamariah and last but not least this coming 5th Dec - Fadilah. Must go shop for kebayas already. Can't wait.
I would want to get engaged first. Not that I have any candidates. I think being engaged will kinda bring out your other half true colors - not that I do not trust the person I am going to be with (in near future - nope; I am still available though- haha)Its an eye-opener thing. At least, if you think he is not the one during the engagement phase at least you can still split up and your status is still SINGLE not DIVORCEE. (!!)
Have seen many cases; engaged for donkey-years finally got married - got a child (or more) and just divorced with 3 years? Imagine the amount of money wasted just like that. Some have not even finish settling loans with the financial institutions. When things like this happens, they'll say 'jodoh tak panjang or dah takde jodoh' Did you hear anyone blame themselves for this? NEVER. They never want to think about their vows (if any) or the times they've wasted on each other.
On the other hand, I have also seen couples who are blissfully married in the name of love and trust. I am happy that most of them are people whom I had known personally. All shared their bits and pieces of unhappiness too but managed to over calm them. That is maybe why I wanted an engagement first. A lot of others have also tell me - engagements are waste of time.
I shall leave it to fate. Pasrah.
PS - Am checking out Tiffany & Co...already drooling..looking at the pretty rings..(with PRETTY price tags too...)
Its a Lucida Tiffany Engagement Rings collection. Its just a dream. I also like this one...
Schlumberger Rope
fret not, future candidates..I am reasonable.
**how i wish** InsyaAllah.
Sunday, November 15, 2009
Tiffany Cafe & CashStudio Karaoke Session with Mummy Sally and Cakkie Darling...
I woke up quite early that morning, to settle my bills and my checkups. Was already late for lunch with Sally and Cakkie.
Meet up my darlings at 1230 - me and Sally took a cab from her place and we zoomed to the Furama City Centre where Tiffany is located.
The ambience is cosy and were well organized except the tables are quite close to each other and thank God it was packed.
This was the their all-time favourite Penang Hor-Fun with its Duck Rice and Roti John by its side. Ain't that clear cause I forgot to on the flash. Sorry.
I ate the salads followed by the selection of sashimi's. Was looking out for the desserts selection which was exhilarating. I helped myself with the lamb shanks, stir-fried peas with cauliflower gratin - See below!!
The Lambshank which I created hahah!
Guess what? They all had durian paste (sob sob) This is something I dread. I have this thing for durians. Since young when my late father bought durians (like baskets of it) I will try to escape from the smell. Though I will eat one or two, my maternal grandfather will make me drink water from its shell.
My banker... :)
Semangat menyanyi...
My choice of soup... Clam chowder.
My choice of desserts.
My favourite!!!
Meet up my darlings at 1230 - me and Sally took a cab from her place and we zoomed to the Furama City Centre where Tiffany is located.
The ambience is cosy and were well organized except the tables are quite close to each other and thank God it was packed.
This was the their all-time favourite Penang Hor-Fun with its Duck Rice and Roti John by its side. Ain't that clear cause I forgot to on the flash. Sorry.
I ate the salads followed by the selection of sashimi's. Was looking out for the desserts selection which was exhilarating. I helped myself with the lamb shanks, stir-fried peas with cauliflower gratin - See below!!
The Lambshank which I created hahah!
Guess what? They all had durian paste (sob sob) This is something I dread. I have this thing for durians. Since young when my late father bought durians (like baskets of it) I will try to escape from the smell. Though I will eat one or two, my maternal grandfather will make me drink water from its shell.
My banker... :)
Semangat menyanyi...
My choice of soup... Clam chowder.
My choice of desserts.
My favourite!!!
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